going through the motions

12:28 am and it's thursday. another day and i'm alive. funny how on some days when people ask me how i'm doing i simply say "i'm alive" because regardless of if i'm feeling great or shitty, nonetheless i'm alive and grateful for it. yesterday was one of those days where i needed to sit down and close my eyes to meditate for a few seconds. usually when you're going through a lot or just doing a lot of things at the same time, you really need those few minutes to have your mind catch up with your body or vice versa. we get in this habit of doing something over and over again and then find ourselves hating it or ourselves for it. keyword: focus. remind yourself of what you want and be clear with yourself of those things. accept the fact that those things can change. and i'm talking out of my ass right now because i'm hoping writing will get rid of this throbbing headache.