-anacondas are real.
-looks can be deceiving.
-the ideal: a dude with a PLAN and SWAGG.
-things never change for some.
-some just aren't up to par.
-if you want to get somewhere, you have to realize you're not going to stay where you are.
-snake charmers create lines.
-bakers like to bake undercover.
-some people won't understand that money can't buy you love.
-just doooooo it.
-i'm going to publish brother's "baysick language" book.
-patience is something i should work on.
-chivalry isn't dead; it's just lost right now.
-there are good guys out there.
-but jerks/assholes/dicks are still roaming this earth and have yet to be extinct.
-not graduating in 4 years isn't everything.
-appreciate the time that is spent with people, regardless if they're still in your life or not, they were in it for a reason.
-everyone makes a few wrong decisions.
-but there are some who make worst decisions.
-real friends don't fuck over friends.
**this list will be updated from time to time.
thanks for reading!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
just cause
just cause:
-this song brings me back to 6th grade.
-this song reminds of how feelgood music feels like.
-i know all of the words.
-tamia's always on point with her jams.
-this song brings me back to 6th grade.
-this song reminds of how feelgood music feels like.
-i know all of the words.
-tamia's always on point with her jams.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
good intentions
why is it that after looking at a number of stars in the sky, the one that is shining the brightest is so close yet so far?
i'm a go-getter. but what i find difficult is kickin' back and waiting for something to happen. this, right here, is new to me. why? because i think that if someone wants something, they should let it be known and do what is needed to obtain it. however, in a certain situation and after many times of being the pursuant, i shall try this "layin' back"-type of approach and see what happens. i shouldn't divulge into thinking too much on it because it'll get me nowhere and i'll just be setting myself up for disappointment. but that, right there, is doing exactly that. as much as i wish things would move along faster than a turtle, i know that it takes time. and, if nothing happens... it is what it is. t-sigh.
"hey gorgeous. i'm tryin' to get your attention. you're listenin' to what your girlfriends mention. they tell you that i got cruel intentions. but they don't know me like that, they don't know me like that. you tryin' to throw me shade, so whattup with you? i'm tryin' to put my bid in and hook it up with you. so stop listenin' to your friends who grew up with you." -Pacific division
i'm a go-getter. but what i find difficult is kickin' back and waiting for something to happen. this, right here, is new to me. why? because i think that if someone wants something, they should let it be known and do what is needed to obtain it. however, in a certain situation and after many times of being the pursuant, i shall try this "layin' back"-type of approach and see what happens. i shouldn't divulge into thinking too much on it because it'll get me nowhere and i'll just be setting myself up for disappointment. but that, right there, is doing exactly that. as much as i wish things would move along faster than a turtle, i know that it takes time. and, if nothing happens... it is what it is. t-sigh.
"hey gorgeous. i'm tryin' to get your attention. you're listenin' to what your girlfriends mention. they tell you that i got cruel intentions. but they don't know me like that, they don't know me like that. you tryin' to throw me shade, so whattup with you? i'm tryin' to put my bid in and hook it up with you. so stop listenin' to your friends who grew up with you." -Pacific division
Sunday, April 20, 2008
really...
so i casually checked my horoscope and it said:
"Bask in Well-Being: A casual good feeling will brighten your day.The leftover excitement from a recent date or other flirtatious encounter should inspire you toward better self-esteem and feelings of success."
that's interesting. quite interesting.
"Bask in Well-Being: A casual good feeling will brighten your day.The leftover excitement from a recent date or other flirtatious encounter should inspire you toward better self-esteem and feelings of success."
that's interesting. quite interesting.
passion
how many people can honestly say they are passionate on what they do? how many people can say they wake up to be glad to go to work? i'm not gonna lie. i tell people "ahhh i have work tomorrow morning... then i have school... then it's repetitious".
today i got reminded of why i'm still with the program that i work with and for. sometimes, sorry, OFTEN TIMES i get caught up with every element that makes up my life that i forget what the hell i'm doing myself. i work for Friday Night Live and i'm PROUD of that. i'm so proud of that to a point where i can present what it's all about, who it's for, how it works, why it works, and why i absolutely love the whole concept of it so down to a "t" it boggles me how it can even be explained through words. even if i land a job with a great agency in the multimedia industry, i love the fact that i have worked with a program so far beyond everyone else. i look at my resume and i'm impressed myself.
in high school, i was a freshman when i heard about this group called the Youth Council Voice Connection for Riverside County. i didn't realize then how much being a part of a group like this would change my life. my views. and take me out of this box. a box that i only knew. that i only associated myself with. i met a tremendous amount of people, seen people grow, and respect the world that much more with every day that's given to me.
I can't exactly explain what I do all in one blog because basically it's all comprised of chunks of this and that. but all that comes to mind are words: youth development, drug prevention, youth EMPOWERMENT, public speaking, leadership skills, build youth and adult partnerships. you would honestly have to follow me around for about a whole school year (august-june) to understand what i do.
So when I was a freshman, my sister and brother in law's friend introduced me to the Youth Council and I immediately gained interest. Here were 6 other high school students whom I've never met before at this meeting in a County of Riverside building at 4:30pm on a Wednesday night. We were at this table and we were given an opportunity to go to a conference in Stockton, California. I thought to myself "what the hell is a conference? and why us?" Key word: OPPORTUNITY. Not everyone gets to attend conferences and it's not often where students are asked "so what are you thinking" or "what do you want to do" or "what's going on in your school that you wish was different". And not often is it that as a youth you're given a chance to answer these questions when we are in so dire need of voicing our opinions. So anyway, we start going to these events, asking these questions, discussing it with more people, bridging the gap between adults and youth, build our public speaking skills as an extra, and get things off our CHEST. wow. i can do that? you mean... i can go to these meetings every other week with these other people that i'm starting to click with. and all i have to do is say what i want, what i think, what i can do to be that change that everyone so often talks about yet does nothing about it? but I CAN do something? are you serious? well, i'm IN! sold! And from there, the fire started.
With no father in the household, with a mother whose stress level is sky high, and with supportive sisters who i love all so dearly and i would sacrifice my life before having them leave this earth for... growing up, i was the observer. i didn't say shit. i watched my sisters fight. i've watched my parents fight. i've seen my dad cheat on my mom. i've seen and been through shit that no one should EVER go through. i've seen shit happen at such a young age; it's sad to say that it's happening to a lot more people in this world everyday. i never used to be the vocal person. i never thought my opinion mattered. heck, i didn't even think i had an opinion. and this mentality is framed at 6th grade. i didn't start actually changing all this until i got into the youth council.
sure, i was in asb and i was president in middle school. but, really?! that doesn't mean shit. yes, i can organize. i can plan. i can think of great ideas. but i was always behind the scenes, doing all of those things that i didn't get much credit for as long as it was done and completed. i would have a task/objective and finish it. simple. then i realized, i want to do something that makes me proud. so i took issues that i felt were important in high school, the community, or the world and started bringing out that opinion through this youth council. i started speaking on youth panels, conducting workshops, educating adults about what the youth at the time are experiencing first hand, going to statewide conferences, interviewing state officials, and simply voicing out my opinion... all at the age of 16. i'm DAMN proud of myself and if you don't give me a cookie, i don't give a damn because i'm eating all the cookies i want.
the fact that i was given the opportunity as a youth to basically make lemonade with the lemon that was thrown to me gives me a tremendous amount of gratitude that i have for ivan for introducing me to a program that i knew was there but had so much set up for me to take advantage of.
after high school and some bullshit jobs, i worked for County of Riverside Friday Night Live as a Student Aide to Friday Night Live Kids chapters (which are elementary students; usually at 4th-5th grade). i was there for almost two years and then after financial situations, i had to move to long beach. FORTUNATELY, i had another opportunity to work for Friday Night Live but in Orange County. The FNL program is a statewide program and is in all counties except for ONE. There are 58 counties in California. IMAGINE? I took it at the drop of a dime.
I absolutely love what I do. Working with youth has brought about a passion I didn't know I had. there have been days where i wanted to give up because some of the youth i work with have lost the hope that they could be great potential to anything. i try every day at work to empower the youth i work with to acknowledge the fact that they can do something they love. and i know they get sidetracked with a whole lot of immature bullshit that they shouldn't even care about. but even i get sidetracked at the fact that this is something they will eventually learn and all i can do is encourage them to make the right decisions in their lives and learn from everything they go through. because after all, we all learn the hard way. we ALL learn the hard way.
one of the greatest women i've ever worked with, being in this program, once told me: "Stephanie, don't let them break you. don't EVER let them break you." and i repeat this to myself every time i have an inch of doubt in any endeavor or task i try to complete. i love her for this.
i am passionate about what i do. and, i can't wait 'til you feel the same way about what you do as a career or anything else in life.
signing out because it's like THAT... and that's the way it is.
today i got reminded of why i'm still with the program that i work with and for. sometimes, sorry, OFTEN TIMES i get caught up with every element that makes up my life that i forget what the hell i'm doing myself. i work for Friday Night Live and i'm PROUD of that. i'm so proud of that to a point where i can present what it's all about, who it's for, how it works, why it works, and why i absolutely love the whole concept of it so down to a "t" it boggles me how it can even be explained through words. even if i land a job with a great agency in the multimedia industry, i love the fact that i have worked with a program so far beyond everyone else. i look at my resume and i'm impressed myself.
in high school, i was a freshman when i heard about this group called the Youth Council Voice Connection for Riverside County. i didn't realize then how much being a part of a group like this would change my life. my views. and take me out of this box. a box that i only knew. that i only associated myself with. i met a tremendous amount of people, seen people grow, and respect the world that much more with every day that's given to me.
I can't exactly explain what I do all in one blog because basically it's all comprised of chunks of this and that. but all that comes to mind are words: youth development, drug prevention, youth EMPOWERMENT, public speaking, leadership skills, build youth and adult partnerships. you would honestly have to follow me around for about a whole school year (august-june) to understand what i do.
So when I was a freshman, my sister and brother in law's friend introduced me to the Youth Council and I immediately gained interest. Here were 6 other high school students whom I've never met before at this meeting in a County of Riverside building at 4:30pm on a Wednesday night. We were at this table and we were given an opportunity to go to a conference in Stockton, California. I thought to myself "what the hell is a conference? and why us?" Key word: OPPORTUNITY. Not everyone gets to attend conferences and it's not often where students are asked "so what are you thinking" or "what do you want to do" or "what's going on in your school that you wish was different". And not often is it that as a youth you're given a chance to answer these questions when we are in so dire need of voicing our opinions. So anyway, we start going to these events, asking these questions, discussing it with more people, bridging the gap between adults and youth, build our public speaking skills as an extra, and get things off our CHEST. wow. i can do that? you mean... i can go to these meetings every other week with these other people that i'm starting to click with. and all i have to do is say what i want, what i think, what i can do to be that change that everyone so often talks about yet does nothing about it? but I CAN do something? are you serious? well, i'm IN! sold! And from there, the fire started.
With no father in the household, with a mother whose stress level is sky high, and with supportive sisters who i love all so dearly and i would sacrifice my life before having them leave this earth for... growing up, i was the observer. i didn't say shit. i watched my sisters fight. i've watched my parents fight. i've seen my dad cheat on my mom. i've seen and been through shit that no one should EVER go through. i've seen shit happen at such a young age; it's sad to say that it's happening to a lot more people in this world everyday. i never used to be the vocal person. i never thought my opinion mattered. heck, i didn't even think i had an opinion. and this mentality is framed at 6th grade. i didn't start actually changing all this until i got into the youth council.
sure, i was in asb and i was president in middle school. but, really?! that doesn't mean shit. yes, i can organize. i can plan. i can think of great ideas. but i was always behind the scenes, doing all of those things that i didn't get much credit for as long as it was done and completed. i would have a task/objective and finish it. simple. then i realized, i want to do something that makes me proud. so i took issues that i felt were important in high school, the community, or the world and started bringing out that opinion through this youth council. i started speaking on youth panels, conducting workshops, educating adults about what the youth at the time are experiencing first hand, going to statewide conferences, interviewing state officials, and simply voicing out my opinion... all at the age of 16. i'm DAMN proud of myself and if you don't give me a cookie, i don't give a damn because i'm eating all the cookies i want.
the fact that i was given the opportunity as a youth to basically make lemonade with the lemon that was thrown to me gives me a tremendous amount of gratitude that i have for ivan for introducing me to a program that i knew was there but had so much set up for me to take advantage of.
after high school and some bullshit jobs, i worked for County of Riverside Friday Night Live as a Student Aide to Friday Night Live Kids chapters (which are elementary students; usually at 4th-5th grade). i was there for almost two years and then after financial situations, i had to move to long beach. FORTUNATELY, i had another opportunity to work for Friday Night Live but in Orange County. The FNL program is a statewide program and is in all counties except for ONE. There are 58 counties in California. IMAGINE? I took it at the drop of a dime.
I absolutely love what I do. Working with youth has brought about a passion I didn't know I had. there have been days where i wanted to give up because some of the youth i work with have lost the hope that they could be great potential to anything. i try every day at work to empower the youth i work with to acknowledge the fact that they can do something they love. and i know they get sidetracked with a whole lot of immature bullshit that they shouldn't even care about. but even i get sidetracked at the fact that this is something they will eventually learn and all i can do is encourage them to make the right decisions in their lives and learn from everything they go through. because after all, we all learn the hard way. we ALL learn the hard way.
one of the greatest women i've ever worked with, being in this program, once told me: "Stephanie, don't let them break you. don't EVER let them break you." and i repeat this to myself every time i have an inch of doubt in any endeavor or task i try to complete. i love her for this.
i am passionate about what i do. and, i can't wait 'til you feel the same way about what you do as a career or anything else in life.
signing out because it's like THAT... and that's the way it is.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
to add to my Creme de la Creme experience
pictures link: http://www.blinkofaniproductions.com/dubfrequency/041208/
Sunday, April 13, 2008
the first quarter of the year
it's april? no, seriously it's april? dude, it's APRIL! and boy, i've looked back on these past few months and it's been pretty interesting. funny how time flies. we seem to not have enough time for a lot of things yet we always say "we have all the time in the world". but i guess it depends on what you're talking about. from school to relationships and work to what lies in the future. i had an awesome saturday. i say awesome because i can't really think of another word to describe it. and, i probably could look another word up in a thesaurus but i'd rather save me that extra time.
i've been sick. stuffy nose. dry throat. ahhh! but you know, a lot of things were going on on Saturday, April 12th. I went to Creme de la Creme at the standard in downtown la. felt pretty darn bouchois or very "l.a.". in the words of mal "steezy steezy steezy". i'd want to throw my birthday party there, right in the 'cut' of downtown los angeles on the rooftop of the standard hotel. saturday was a beautiful day to be in southern california. juuuust beautiful. after the standard, we headed over to usc to watch de la soul and lupe perform for FREE. although we all spent money on parking, drinking, and eating... i would have to say saturday was mighty cheap to be hanging out in l.a. i enjoyed it even though i was sneezing, sniffling, and had a raspy voice.
so, here's what it looked like at the standard:
i've been sick. stuffy nose. dry throat. ahhh! but you know, a lot of things were going on on Saturday, April 12th. I went to Creme de la Creme at the standard in downtown la. felt pretty darn bouchois or very "l.a.". in the words of mal "steezy steezy steezy". i'd want to throw my birthday party there, right in the 'cut' of downtown los angeles on the rooftop of the standard hotel. saturday was a beautiful day to be in southern california. juuuust beautiful. after the standard, we headed over to usc to watch de la soul and lupe perform for FREE. although we all spent money on parking, drinking, and eating... i would have to say saturday was mighty cheap to be hanging out in l.a. i enjoyed it even though i was sneezing, sniffling, and had a raspy voice.
so, here's what it looked like at the standard:
Saturday, April 5, 2008
whoops.
3 midterms this week. meaning... i'm shittin' bricks. study mode this week. however come friday after work around 6pm... i'm in need of an activity that has nothing to do with work or school. any suggestions? 'cause i'm free.
chivalry
"chivalry: courteous behavior, esp. that of a man toward a woman."
chivalry is not dead. guys know how to use phones; they didn't spend money to purchase one if they knew they weren't going to use it. if they're interested, they'll call. and if they're too pussy to call, then they're not ready for you; hence why you shouldn't spend your time staring at your cellphone every 10 minutes. don't chase guys; they actually like to pursue, for us to make it easier for them sends them thoughts that they've got us already and that's not sexy. yes, i said it, it's NOT SEXY. of course it's attractive when ladies know what they want because that cancels out the "i don't know's" and the "i'm the bitch that plays hard to get" category. however, i've learned from my guy friends that it's attractive when ladies act like ladies and not girls. so yes, that means ladies who know what they want and know that they deserve what they want. i'm not saying we shouldn't do shit, but i am saying we shouldn't be the one initiating the start of a new "special friendship". our love and respect should be treated accordingly; they should not be given so freely, but require hard work in obtaining. thank you! =)
chivalry is not dead. guys know how to use phones; they didn't spend money to purchase one if they knew they weren't going to use it. if they're interested, they'll call. and if they're too pussy to call, then they're not ready for you; hence why you shouldn't spend your time staring at your cellphone every 10 minutes. don't chase guys; they actually like to pursue, for us to make it easier for them sends them thoughts that they've got us already and that's not sexy. yes, i said it, it's NOT SEXY. of course it's attractive when ladies know what they want because that cancels out the "i don't know's" and the "i'm the bitch that plays hard to get" category. however, i've learned from my guy friends that it's attractive when ladies act like ladies and not girls. so yes, that means ladies who know what they want and know that they deserve what they want. i'm not saying we shouldn't do shit, but i am saying we shouldn't be the one initiating the start of a new "special friendship". our love and respect should be treated accordingly; they should not be given so freely, but require hard work in obtaining. thank you! =)
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